It’s one of those things that I can feel creeping up. Like the annoying fat kid who eagerly wants to be my friend. It ruins my productivity, drains my creative desires and kills my spirit. Depression isn’t something I alone face; even though it always feels like it. Millions of people face this unwelcomed relative in constantly recurring cycles. I know I sure as hell do.
When it first crept up on me, I was in my teens and didn’t know what the hell was going on. In a single moment I became worthless and fell into a black nothingness that devoured the entire world. nihilistic thoughts pour through my mind. Nothing is new in the world. I haven’t done and won’t do jack shit to change it There’s no use for breathing. I’m just one of a billion programmed robots roaming in the same waste of space. On good days, I’ll get out of bed only for my responsibilities to others (family, work). Bad days include thoughts of giving it all up to the world through self-provided death.
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Anyway, I wish you could have told me about this back then. After everything you helped me through with the Scott situation, I could have returned the favor. You were the only person I could tell everything to. I didn’t have to act fake and smile when all I wanted to do was cry and scream. You helped me so much, and I may have been able to help you. I really miss being friends with you. You were definitely the best friend I have had. I am glad you have figured out how to help yourself during these times, and just remember that no matter what, there are people who love you more than life!!
Oh, I forgot one.
Talk to Cassie everytime you get the chance
I am a creative person who design stuff, write code and try to build an online businesses that will change some worlds. I usually don’t suspect when I get in this cycle, but here I am, currently wallowing in this cycle, so I Googled for how to be productive while depressed, and your page came up.
The seven points raised above says alot, particularly, 1,6, and 7. I don’t know if reading something unrelated to your normal work will help as well – like reading some passages in the Bible, have you got ideas?